'Grey's' Memorial Video Will Make You Scream

If your tears have dried after Derek Shepherd died on Grey's Anatomy last night, grab another box of tissues, because the floodgates are about to open again. ABC released a memorial video of all of Derek and Meredith's most memorable moments — appropriately set to The Fray's "How to Save a Life" — showing that they were together in good times and bad and in sickness and in health, even if they didn't have a traditional wedding ceremony. (And yes, the Post-It wedding is definitely one of the sob-inducing moments.)

Eleven seasons whiz by in the video, jumping from "I'm just a girl in a bar" and "I'm just a guy in a bar" and their awkward post-one-night-stand run-in at the hospital, to "pick me, choose me, love me" after Addison returns, to Derek saying "it's like I was drowning and you saved me" and then actually saving Meredith from drowning. ("You're not my knight in shining whatever" included, of course.) It quickly moves through the memorable bathtub scene, Mer's "we can be extraordinary" speech with the candlelit floorplan for their home, Derek's shooting, their wedding, and adopting Zola, but it's the final moments that really knock you on the floor. "I'm in love with you. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want a lifetime," Derek tells Meredith early on, and then it hits you that they will never get to grow "old and smelly and senile" together like they said in their vows. Why, Shonda, why?!

Two minutes and 34 seconds is not enough time to truly show Meredith and Derek's love story, but it comes close. They omitted the plane crash, the hospital bombing, and the birth of their son, Bailey, entirely, but maybe not including every tragedy is for the best. The montage shows us how far they've come and how lucky we were to have them for 11 years together. Even though Derek shouldn't have died at the hands of incompetent doctors, there's no way to change that, so I think we should just look back with fond memories of MerDer and try to move on. It's like Meredith said to Derek in their final moments together: "We'll be OK." Sobbing, but OK.

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