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Following Prince Harry and Meghan Markle’s heartbreaking March sit-down with Oprah Winfrey, Harry and the revered talk show host sat down for another candid conversation regarding his experiences as a royal, Princess Diana’s tragic death, and how it all impacts his mental health.
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In The Me You Can’t See, Harry revealed what comes to mind when he thinks of Diana: “Strapped in the car, seatbelt across, with my brother [William], and my mother driving, being chased by [paparazzi]... She was always unable to drive because of tears. There was no protection.”
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He also recalled her 1997 death and funeral: “When my mum was taken away from me at the age of 12 ... I didn’t want the [royal] life. Sharing the grief of my mother’s death with the world … the thing I remember the most was the sound of horses’ hooves going along the mall, red brick road.”
On the trauma caused by Diana's death from ages 28 to 32, “I was just all over the place mentally,” he said. “Every time I put a suit on … having to do the role, and go, ‘right, game face.’” He continued, “Before I even left the house, I was pouring with sweat. I was in fight-or-flight mode.”
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Noting that he often discussed his struggles with members of the royal family, he said, “Family members have said ‘just play the game and your life will be easier.’ But I’ve got a hell of a lot of my mum in me. The only way to free yourself and break out is to tell the truth.”
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He also said Diana's loss kept Meghan from acting on suicidal thoughts. “[What] stopped her from seeing it through was how unfair it would be on me after [Diana's tragic death] and to now to be put in a position of losing another woman in my life — with [our] baby inside of her.”
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On reminders of Diana: “I got a photo of her in [Archie's] nursery, and it was one of the first words that he said — apart from ‘mama,’ ‘papa,’ it was then ‘grandma.’ Grandma Diana. It’s the sweetest thing, but at the same time, it makes me really sad because she should be here.”
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“I have no doubt my mum would be incredibly proud of me, living the life she wanted for herself. I know she’s incredibly proud of me [and] has helped me get here,” he said. “I have never felt her presence more than in the past year. I wish she could have met Meghan [and] Archie.”
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You can also reach out to the Trans Lifeline at 877-565-8860 or the Trevor Lifeline at 1-866-488-7386, or to your local suicide crisis center.